Respect and Assumptions - Tell Us How You Really Feel

 I am having difficulty understanding some people. I am not gonna name names and before anyone takes this personally keep in mind if you find this offensive then I might be speaking of your actions and assumptions!!! If you do find that it hits home then do me a favor ok? Keep the temper fit to yourself because I really do not wanna deal with it!!!

So many issues this week I do not know where to begin, so if this article is random that's why. 

All week people have hit me up for money. The people hitting me up actually  make far more money than I do..... Some of the ones hitting me up actually owe me money that they haven't repaid.... They hit me up for my recycles and stuff they can sell. They never take into account that I may need to sell those recycles or items. But hey they need it more than I do right? And since I have it they feel entitled to it......

All week people have been getting upset with me because I won't just hop in the truck and come visit with them. Maybe they can afford gas but I cannot and they seem to not understand that. 

All week I have tried to nap, sometimes telling everyone, sometimes not saying it but either way as soon as I start to doze off my phone blows up. When I reply that I am tired and trying to nap the people seem to get upset. 

Some are volunteering my items for certain uses as if they control those items. But the funny thing is the people volunteering my shit for other purposes will not assist in putting it to use that way. They want ME to do it and them benefit from it. 

For over a month I have helped where I can, given more than I should and I fucking guarantee that later in the month when I may need something the ones I have helped will not help me!!! 

So, if you want me to visit then paypal me some gas money. I cannot afford to run out my gas I need for class running the roads visiting everyone! Sorry but I am a broke bitch who really doesn't even like running the roads and prefers people to come visit me!!

For those needing this or that - sorry. I struggle to get the things I do have and struggle to replace them when I don't have them. Many of you make the same amount as I do or more yet hit me up because you blow your money on bullshit and think I can carry multiple households!!! You know you need these things but you choose not to provide them for yourself. It is not my responsibility to provide them for you.

I get grumbles over who is using how much water and the amount they are paying per load. Each month the water usage differs. Some may use less than others. Some use more than others. But to be 100% fair I set a flat rate per household and STILL can't make people fucking happy. I am seriously to the point of taking all my tanks back and letting everyone figure out their own water situation because I am sick and tired of hearing how $60 per household isn't fair!!!! If you do not want to pay the flat rate let me know. We can disconnect the tank designated for you and you can figure out your own water. Since you rent bare land there is no requirement for me to provide water or water tanks. I have done that out of the goodness of my heart. But literally all I ever hear is complaints about how much or goo in the tank because the sun hits it and it isn't painted yet. Well, part of the amount per load is to cover little things like painting the tanks, cleaning them etc. Replacing parts when needed and so much more. But hey, if the flat rate doesn't agree with you then solution is easy - get your own tank, pay the full load price of $160 and have your own water hauled in!!! Figure it out THIS MONTH because I am seriously tired of the grumbles. I busted ass to clean the one tank when I shouldn't have even been on my foot! This will be the last month I provide tanks and supplies if I have to listen to complaints about the flat rate, broken parts that you promised to replace since your household broke it or whatnot. I am just fucking tired of trying to be fair about the water delivery and maintenance costs that I am done!!!! Either come together on ana  greement that works for everybody since the flat rate seems to upset some, or everyone can provide their own tanks and water because I am just fucking done.

When I got my check someone begged me to help them get a new phone because they could not afford to replace theirs. I did on the agreement that a certain task would be done. Since it is HOT this person has helped me twice inside the house. It was small jobs, not nearly covering the price I paid for the phone, service, activation etc. I have not said a word though I have waited for this person to offer to make this right after it was promised they would do so. But now that the billing cycle rolled around, the service was cut the person has not done the agreed upon task and still has the phone. I can live with them keeping the phone they have worked that much off. But here is the kicker, I did this KNOWING what would happen. I went into this with my eyes wide open even though it put a pinch on finances this month.

I am also dealing with a friend who constantly tries to joke - tasteless jokes that he has been told to stop that they aren't funny and aren't wanted. Today I hung up on him because he could not control himself and every 2 minutes was telling this particular type of "joke". How many times do I have to say I do not want to hear those jokes before he gets it and respects it? I am putting him on text only for a while because he hasn't even apologized for it yet!!! To clarify this, the things he says are NOT jokes, they are insulting. He has been told this but continues to say the insulting things anyways. If you cannot respect my boundaries then you do not need to talk to me.

Why is it when someone needs something and I have it they think they can beg me for it or try to guilt me into giving it to them? Or they say it's theirs and they loaned it to me - when in reality they didn't! I am the one who has scoured online for materials. I am the one who has taken my vehicle to get those materials. I put in the labor to load and unload those materials. But people seem to think it's a free for all as if they are entitled to them! 

Then I have another who has things all over my front yard in front of my RV. I have begged and threatened trying to get said person to clean that nasty mess up they will not even acknowledge that they have been asked. But it will be me accused of being the evil bitch for hauling the shit off after it gets destroyed by the rain!!! Considering this person is not paying one red cent to me for storage - it would seem they would at least keep their shit neat and protected from the weather and not expect everyone else to do it for them!!!

I am also sick of one person thinking I owe them. How many times did this person take off leaving her dogs and Iva on that hill alone? How many times did this person have a temper tantrum and refuse to care for Iva? How many times did I go up there and bring cleaning supplies to clean up after Dave? How many times did I bring food and other necessities up there? How many times was I called and expected to drop what I was doing and run up there to help with some crisis? This person helped me ONCE, but you would think they have done nothing but help me. This person has no cash income so they cannot support themselves let alone help anyone else out!!! When this person got tossed from the property up there how many trips were made in my truck, my gas, my time and my labor to help load and unload? How much outta my pocket paid the other helpers? How many times were the cops called and I was left to deal with them? This person needs to remember ALL of this the next time they wanna throw the cost of a few bags of cat food in my face!!!! Especially when this person had possession of my debit card and ebt card and could have used my money to purchase that cat food!!!! They chose not to though, even though they had my cards and the cards had more than enough on them!!!! Let's not forget all the shit that was removed from INSIDE of my  camper during that time like the vast majority of my foster kittens supplies, all the prescription meds I had for them, a shit ton of food, dishes, personals, clothing and more. All of which this person claims to not have touched but since moving to my property some of the missing items have been located!!! But somehow she thinks I owe her?!?!? I allowed her to park her motorhome on my property when she got booted from the hill, even paid the guy to move it!!!! But somehow I owe her.... In her eyes everyone owes her even if she doesn't know you!!!!

I have watched as that person tries to lay claim to shit that isn't theirs. I have said nothing to this point about that because until now it hasn't been my business. Now it is since that person is trying that same shit on my property. Sorry, but everything that belongs to me I can provide tracking for. Chats from those who gave it to me, receipts from those who purchased it originally and witnesses who helped me go fetch things. So, keep in mind trying to lay claim to shit that isn't yours - the way you did on the hill - will not work here with me. One day someone will give you a taste of your own medicine on this issue and I wish I could see it!!!

Some seem to think I am a tobacco store. I am responsible enough to supply my habit, usually buy more than I use in a month. This doesn't mean someone else is entitled to the extra I have, or the junk tobacco from the tray, or tubes etc. I had to pay for these items and what have I gotten in return when I have given this away? Your check is the same amount as mine. If I can afford to make sure I have enough tobacco and supplies for the month then you can too. I cannot keep giving my shit away and getting nothing in return!!! It has slowed down since there are fewer in that home now. On the flip side I have not seen the borrowers offer me anything when I am in need.

Why is it people expect shit of me and get upset when I don't do it, but when I ask for a little in return I am the bitch?!?!?

 

I am also responsible enough to make sure my animals have enough food for the month. Their supplies are purchased FIRST to make damn sure they are taken care of because they take care of me. The cats keep vermin away and the dogs protect the place. One day the chickens will produce eggs, right now they just make noise! I am tired of some thinking that because I have food they can "borrow" some because they did not plan ahead, or ran out and cannot get to the store or even think I am gonna hand over people food for the animals.  I love animals but remember they are NOT my animals and I struggle to make sure all of my spoiled brats have the food they require. It is not my responsibility to provide for someone else's animals. I have already cleaned out the cupboards and given every old item I had for that purpose. You chose to have the animals it is on you to provide for them. Just remember WE can hear them whine when they do not get enough food. WE can hear them fight over the food they do get. It is hard enough for me, being disabled, to manage my own animals on the exact same income as the ones hitting me up for food when they have none. Either learn how to provide for them or give them to someone who will. (This applies to more than one person and household that has tried to guilt me into feeding their animals).

Then I am told someone who is no longer welcome on this property is starting drama that includes me. The only recourse I have to this is to prevent the person video chatting with the drama maker from bringing devices into my home. If they cannot sit and chat in my living room then there will be no more drama that includes me. 

I am spent now but there is more, oh so much more that I cannot write about tonight.....