Fair Weather Friend.......

Note to Someone, No One and Maybe You,

 

I left the city because I was tired of the drama and bullshit.

I moved to literally isolate myself and finally get some peace and quiet AND take some much needed ME time.

But it seems I am always getting called upon to “save the day”…..

Good ole reliable Evelyn will ALWAYS help out…..

But where are YOU when I could use a little help? You ALWAYS call on me….. And I do mean always…..

I had not spoken to you or been around you in MONTHS, then one day the phone rings….. Poor me I need gas and can’t get to town to get any do you have some by chance???? No, but I’ll run to town for you. Can’t have the 100 year old without power…..What you really wanted was Kessler and to grope me while I was driving.

Gee, I’m going away for a few days think you can watch the dogs for me???? Sure, when are you returning??? Um, gee, well…. Or utter silence……

Hey, I need a place to stay I can help you through your surgery. Ok, but you know the work round here ain’t easy and it’s off grid life…. Yup, I’m ready for it…… I don’t feel good….. Too busy playing games on the phone….. Too busy using dating apps to hook up with men to bring liquor……Complains about everything being so hard….. Complains that “I leave everything for her to do”…….I can’t even get her to put away her shit that’s been sitting in the driveway for over a month……

Why is a neighbor that I am NOT related to – somehow MY responsibility????? Why are her animals somehow my responsibility?????

Why is it EVERY time the neighbor’s son or person who lives on her property decides to take off – it is ALWAYS last minute notice to ME that somehow I am expected to drop everything and help???? They leave her with little to no water, no gas or oil for her generator, little to no food, no clean clothes, no household cleaning supplies – hell her brand new broom has literally disappeared….. And good ole Evelyn ALWAYS makes sure the 100 year old does NOT go without…. ALWAYS…

Yet, y’all talk shit about me……Call ME a fair weather friend…..

Y’all are the ones reaching out to ME all the time…… I don’t ask y’all for shit….

Yeah, this time I did ask Iva for a few rabbit cages, which she graciously gave me and told me to get the feeders and water bottles to go with it….. But, those cages are sitting in a broken down barn that is rotting around them….. No one is ever gonna use them and the ones I chose were BROKEN – not the good ones….. Iva also sat on the porch and WATCHED which ones I got and approved of it.

Considering everything I have done on a moments notice, it is a small thing to ask that I get a few cages so I can raise some bunnies and chicks to be self sufficient out here…..

At least I did NOT leave a helpless 100 year old to fend for herself, without water, gas, oil, food etc…. A nearly blind and deaf 100 year old who puts a roof over YOUR head, provides YOUR power, water etc….. Provides a jeep for you to use…..

But, somehow I am the fair weather friend…..

I don’t see anyone up here helping me fix the roof, driveway, organize the storage camper, build more storage, level the campers, sorting materials that were graciously donated and delivered to me, building the dog kennel or adding on to it, providing me a ride when my jeep was down, hauling my water or filling up my jugs when I am out, helping me when my generator won’t start or even help me load it to take it for a warranty exchange…… You SAID you were worried about YOUR generator……

I have dropped everything to help ALL of you more than once…… I have listened to the empty promises that you will help me….. But when I’m done I am done….

No more parking in my chair and getting nothing done…..

No more calling me last minute with YOUR crisis….

I am taking MY life back and doing things I need done……

Do not ask me for anything you will not do for me…… It IS that simple…..

I am tired of being used, tired of being taken advantage of, tired of people just assuming that I will jump in and rescue them from their own created crisis's….

I am going to focus on ME, my life, my needs and if YOUR think that’s selfish…. Right there’s the road no one’s stopping you and no one is forcing you to stay here….

It is time that grown ass adults take responsibility for themselves and STOP loading it on ME….

 

I supposedly leave everything for YOU to do huh????

My storage camper is so disorganized – how many times have I asked for help to fix that???

How many times have I asked for the boxes in the driveway to be put up before the rainy season gets here????

Did you get your ass outta bed to go help me exchange the generator – when the box was bigger than I am??? Did you get outta bed to help me unload it or set it up?

Do you help me clean up after YOUR cat? Do you even buy his food????

Do you help me clean MY house BEFORE it’s so messy that it takes all damn day???? Or do you sit on your phone doing whatever seems more important???

Did you bother to buy cat food before having a shopping spree on Etsy???? Or did you just ASSUME that I would feed your cat???

Did you pitch in one cent to get water? Did you even bother to offer to go with me to do it???

Did you bother to help me load any of the jugs into the jeep so I could go get water????

Do you take the initiative to start supper or do you sit playing on your phone griping about being hungry????

Have you even washed any dishes lately???? Have you brought in water jugs for drinking or cleaning with????

You wanted your laundry done but never said where it was, which bags etc…. Somehow I am supposed to just magically know which ones to send to town????

Do you ever clean up your drink bottles after yourself or do I find a shitload of them under and behind my rocking chair???? Even after I have asked you to gather them and take them out…..

You like to complain about things but will not help do what is needed to make things better…..

You gripe about not having enough power at the RV when the solar acts up…. But when do I have TIME to work on it since I am doing all these other things that I supposedly leave you to do???

I welcomed you here because of promises that I would have the help I needed so I can get 2 very needed surgeries…… Obviously I cannot trust that this help will be provided….

You need this and you need that……Your cat needs YOU. He is literally heartbroken….

But as I do all of this, and more (such as the canning, putting away of food, cleaning up, etc) somehow I leave all this shit for YOU to do….

You make posts looking so pitiful, as if it is so horrible out here….. If this way of life isn’t for you – right there’s the road….. I will get someone in the RV who can and WILL help me without such a fuss and all the griping….

Yet, I’m the bitchy one….. I am the fair weather friend…. I am the one leaving all this shit for you to do….

Well, next time you need me ask yourself this – will I do it for her? IF the answer is NO then do NOT bother to ask me….. So tired of the bullshit I am literally nauseated.

 

In the future you pull your share of the load. If you can’t / won’t then I will find someone who will. It IS that simple.

You came here to help me, not the other way around. You were to help me prep for surgery, through surgery, etc and that isn’t happening…. You are too busy on your phone.

When you come back I have a small surprise….. It will be a little more difficult to park your ass to play on your phone in MY house…… My living room needs finished. The rocker needs aired out and the carpet needs put in…. None of which you are likely to help me with so, I’m getting started on it today without you…..

I am sick and tired of empty promises and people talking shit about me after everything I do for them.

I am about to give people something to talk shit about :P