Susan Still Behind Closed Doors Domestic Violence Story

So much like what I went through...... No matter what you do it is never enough and it took years for me to understand the problem was not me.

The question - why did you stay? Why didn't you leave? When he cuts you off from the outside world, where do you go? It took me 20 years to get out and free. Some women are still stuck in it....

The fight when I chose to go to college...... The car problems that I dealt with just to get to class...... The pager he used to control me - always know where I was, who I was with, what I was doing......

The mental place a woman goes to is dark and alone...... Getting out of that place is a fight she will lose more than once........ How many beatings I suffered and was not allowed off the property. No one could SEE what he did except his parents who lived next door........ How they enabled the abuse..... 

When I finally walked away I never looked back. But shows like this remind me what is back there, what he put me through and how close to death I came at his hands. 

Thank God I got out and I hope I can help others as well. I talk to other women in the groups..... It is hard sometimes to see them use the same excuses I gave....... 

Prayer and Faith is what we have. 

Sadly, in my case, the damage he done to the family connections is still not repaired...... Maybe one day....