A Little About Me for the Karen's :)

 

All my life I watched girls like you.... The ones who thought they had to impress others to keep themselves happy..... 

In grade school I was the "fat girl" with thick glasses and my nose in a book. I had one friend and even then she wasn't a bestie kind of friend. I went through grade school being bullied by the boys and girls alike! The only reason kids tolerated me was because Dad had money. We through the best birthday parties, holidays etc and had the only slip and slide around! 

In middle school I ditched the glasses (never got contacts either). I lost so much weight between seventh and eighth grade everyone thought I was a new girl! It didn't stop the bullies though.... I could wear the Jordache...... I could wear all the fashion trends and it didn't matter. I kept my nose in books when I wasn't out riding my bike. I spent my time at the park reading......

High school was a whole different game though. I was always a popular target for the boys because I had "boulder boobs"...... High school I became a different kind of target..... I liked to dance, but NOT party so I was the sober driver..... I was THAT friend who you could always call but rarely hung out with, except for midnight viewing of Rocky Horror! I had my fair share of girl fights and fucked their boyfriends too. It's a wonder I never got pregnant to be honest.

I was bullied and abused at home too. My baby sister was worse than any of the girls I went to school with and my mom constantly telling people I was fucking around before I was 14!!! I lost my virginity at 14 because I kept getting accused of it so why not? 

I ran off and got married at 16, baby at 17 divorced at 19. Being a single parent was not easy. I worked two jobs most of the time. Mom baby sat until I met my second husband who was worse than the first. The abuse began fairly early in the marriage and lasted until I left him in 2011. I have been singleever since and loving it.

I gave up my children for my piece of shit husband, but not in the way you think. He was a danger to them. I stayed to keep him from finding them. As they began to turn eighteen, I left. I figured they were adults and could protect themselves. I put near 2,000 miles between me and him when I came to California. 

I never had so much as a parking ticket until I met Lewis, but what Lewis wanted Lewis got one way or another. When you have been beaten, brainwashed and a shell of yourself for 20 years it takes time to undo all of that damage. Battered Women's Syndrome is no joke! 

Because I was never a social butterfly as a child and was not permitted to have friends during my marriage to Lewis, I am not the type of person who can flit around chatting all day. I learned long ago that my time is better spent on things that matter, I find this offends some people. They cannot understand why I would not want to go out, hang out, drink and get wild. 

If I have invited you to my home, consider that an honor because not many get invited! If I have invited you inside for coffee that is a greater honor because few get that invitation. I value those who treat me with respect. 

I have zero tolerance for bullshit, lies and drama but it always seems to find me no matter how far civilization I take myself. 

Who were my childhood heroes? Grizzly Adams!!! I watched that man build a cabin with hand tools and carve out a life in tune with nature and I so want that! Little House on the Prairie was amazing too. The way of life was more simple and although the work was difficult, at the end of the day it was good work.Why do people think it is not natural to want a life like that? It can be far more fulfilling than parking your ass on the couch with a phone or tablet. RING RING boom your life stops to see what the noise is. I cannot live like that. 

MEOW is the noise that I follow. I have been a cat person since I was 8 years old and accidentally rescued a litter of baby skunks. I was hooked. So, I want a quiet place away from loud cities where I can live in tune with nature, not so strange.

The karen's cannot grasp that a person can be HAPPY living like Grizzly Adams did. I tried city living.... It's not for me. Been there done that. I am a girl with the blood of a holler in her veins and I do not wish to change that. How many city karen's can skin a buck? How many can fish using live bait? How many have killed a pig and butchered it themselves? They are too good for all that right?

A hundred years ago the way I choose to live was the popular way. Electricity was just being run in cities a hundred years ago. 

Karen's cannot see that the way of life I choose if better for the environment, reduces the carbon footprint and gives back to the land we have raped for so long. Maybe they like eating all those chemicals on their food..... But there is a better way......

We have taken so much from our planet if I can set a small example then I have done well. Some cannot see the vision I have, yet. But it is working out slowly.

For the karen's who think poor people do not "deserve" to own land and should be homeless or living in a car..... I worked my ass off to pay this land off EARLY. I pay my taxes the same as you do, on time every year. You are not better than I am because you have money, on the contrary the money controls you and your "need" for it consumes you. Between the gossiping and constant grasping for the almighty dollar you have lost what you should be reaching for......

I have found inner peace and even reached out to my childhood bullies, the ones I could find on social media. Not a single one offered an apology for the torture they put me through growing up.Not one. Not that I really expected it I doubt they even remember to be honest.

I was just that weird, overweight girl with pimples and acne, only cool when they wanted a cigarette or a sober driver..... 

Being on the outside looking in has given me quite a unique perspective on things. It is also where I CHOOSE to be now. I have no desire to be part of the karen clique, but it is humorous watching them flit about like flies, no purpose, no destination just flitting about until they die.

I am an enigma, a puzzle you will never understand, nor do I wish you to. I am not here to make the karen's happy. I am here to make ME happy. I am happy and I wish karen's would stop trying to fix things that aren't broken! Karen's standards are not my standards. Karen's goals are not my goals. Karen's dreams are not my dreams. I was not put here to live out someone else's dream. I am here to live out my own dreams.

So, my life in a nutshell. I doubt you even recall the same type of girl who you attended school with that you treated the same way I got treated. Look her up, apologize to her, not that it will really matter or change anything. But you might find it healing for yourself.

To the karen's who do not like me guess what..... Social media has a BLOCK feature, instead of constantly stalking my shit. You think it doesn't get back to me that you stalk my pages? Gee you really are naive!

Ok, time to get the littles cleaned up for bed and get some sleep. Lots of work to get done tomorrow! Yes I will be posting pix, finally gonna tackle some of the crap Bill and Julie left! Get that area straightened out and maybe get that nasty ass motorhome they left hauled out of here soon! 

Sorry karen, your gripes did not get the result you sought! But I am sure you will not quit trying because you have no life except meddling in others. If you hate me so much, why bother?Block me and move on sheesh! You are worse than my oldest daughter who is in her mid thirties and still believes the lies my ex hubby's family told her!!! Not my job to prove a thing to you. I learned that experiencing everything above.

I will pray for you though.